I know, I know, J and I’ve never even been together, so we couldn’t possibly have broken up. But somehow, it just feels like it. Especially this morning, when I realized that it might just be the best for me to stay away from J as far as possible.Before we “officially” ended our I-don’t-even-know-what-to-call-it relationship, we were talking about applying for Chunghua Telecom’s F2 service, which would enable us to call each other at a much cheaper rate. There was, however, some technical problem that prevented us from doing it, so we never did it.
Just this morning, J called me and told me he’d figured out a way (which I didn’t like so much for some reason) to work it out. We were discussing, trying to reach agreement when all of a sudden it occurred to me: Maybe, it’s better for me to call at a expensive rate, so that I would manage to stop calling him so often, and get over it sooner.
It felt exactly like when I broke up with Hsiao, my ex, whom I dated a few years ago. We still call each other like friends do now.
Once every other or three months, that is.
Constance said
hey Avery,
i don’t know if i should left message here, since i am only a stop by-er,
but from what i saw between your lines, you had the emotion, you had the feeling, but it seems like you two were in “communication fuzz”. Have you ever talked to him about how you feel? if yes, then you should tell him more, if you decided to keep relationship with him. But if you didn’t, then you HAVE to tell him.
i once have the same reaction like you, you know the ” change into higher rate then will stop me calling him”, but trust me, it won’t work, and all you got is higher and much higher bill.
so, is odd for me to give comment since i don’t know any bit of your relations, but maybe you can try to dig out why he say that?
(laugh) anywaz, i wish you both happy.
averytaiwan said
Dear Constance,
Thank you for trying to cheer me up.
As a matter of fact, yes, we’ve talked about it and agreed that there really is no hope for us. It’s complicated but to put it short, we are probably better off being friends for now.
By the way, I do call him less now; after all, I was the one who suggested that we should just be friends, and I am a promise-keeper.
I guess just like most of the love stories in real life, love is wonderful, but it doesn’t have to be either Romeo and Juliet or Happy Ever After. Maybe a story that ends with two friends and the sincerest friendship would be a happier ending.
Constance said
yeah..
(hug)
that will be nice too
then maybe someday, you will find another beautiful stranger, who knows?
ps, i like your blog, the one for translation and interpretation..help lots !
averytaiwan said
Thanks, Constance.